Why? Because "us" is not the best for us

i dont know why.

it's funny when it seems to happenned again.

and right now,

i'm just thinking a lot about:

why did you come?
why did you great me?
why did you add my account?
why did you ask me for chatting?

why did you ask me "will you come or not"?

why did you look annoyed?
why did you ignore me suddenly?
why did you stop greating me?
why did you come again?

why did you text me?

why did you give me an attention?
why did you say some soothing words?
why did you convince me to forget him?
why did you start complimenting?

why did you say that words?

why did you confirm me that you're serious?
why did you start fulfiling my mind?
why did you play this game on me?
why did you do it just like him?
why did you dissapear few days ago?
why did you appear on my timeline?

why did you not answer my message?

why did you make me confused?
why did you make me just wondering all day?
why did you accost me that way?
why did you act like nothing happened?
why did you make me waiting?
why did you do this to me?

why are you doing this?

oh, why did you?

just wanna tell somebody that

i just hate being like this...

it's just like some old day,

when he was still around me.

when he came and got me

then he stayed away from my life in sudden.

it was hurt, but not anymore.

yet, i still remember what it was like,

just like those old *sucks* days,

i just want to get out.

just runaway somewhere.

cause it made me drop in traumatical condition:

...and i became disliking many things.

i dislike wondering
i dislike waiting
i dislike holding on for nothing
i just dislike for being this, ain't know to do.

because i am afraid

that you are not take me seriously
that you are just playing around
that you are too scared for staying
because i am worried that

i start to have a feeling about you

what should i do?

should i stay away?

should i just move on without you?

should i just forget all that indeed words?

should i stop waiting because it drives me so crazy?

should i ?

well, if that is what you want, then i will be.

i will, trust me.

i understand accordingly; i just need to do one thing

yeah, it is called "leave you behind"

to make you understand that i'm doing this not because i want to do it, 

but because of your own that seems to ask me to do it.

cause you know what? 
maybe "us" is not the best for us...
 


                                                                                                       Unfailing Regards,

*cih, galau amat sih ini postingan -,-

lagi iseng doang kok nulis ini,

gausah dianggep apa2,

oh, just forget it!